Memories

Hello hello! I don't know where to begin...it's been quite awhile and I do have to profusely apologize for that. Life has been crazy busy this year so far. I can't believe how much has changed since the last time a post was put up here. Let me try to summarize. But before I do, let me explain my picture. As you can see, there isn't a new object in the frame per-se, but there are shadows of summer flowers. My idea for this image, was to of course use the past image-within-an-image, but to capture the summer time while expressing a feeling of remembrance. I wanted to be able to look at this image and feel memories, stories, good times and bad, and to just enjoy it. I'm happy with how it turned out, hopefully others feel the same. Okay, now onto my novel of an explanation.

The beginning of this year was purely devoted to my portfolio for school. I had to shoot, develop the film, print and process the pictures and then edit out which ones I wanted to submit to be accepted into upper division photography at ASU. It was so nerve wracking because ASU has one of the top 10 photography programs in the nation and you only get two tries to submit and then your banned from ever trying again. Talk about pressure. So I redid my portfolio from scratch about 5 times...each time shooting/processing/printing/developing around 200 pictures each. Needless to say I slept at school a lot and was there almost every weekend...I died a little haha Then pre-portfolio review came. We got to show our work to the professors who would be deciding who gets in or not and hear what they had to say before we fully submitted. Omg. It was horrible. They were way too harsh on everyone. During a critique the room would be silent besides the professors then the person would take their stuff down and run out of the room..and I mean run haha Needless to say I redid my whole portfolio...again...in less than a week. I don't know how, but I did it. And after all that drama, sweat, blood, money, no sleep...I got in :) I know this will sound gay, but I have to say I'm proud of myself for not chickening out. I pushed myself further than I thought I could and did something I've always dreamed of.

So all that crap was my first 5 months of the year, plus other school work on top of that. It was hell. But I lived and got good grades! Other than surviving school, I dealt with family drama like usual, broke a toe and got many more injuries like usual, lost all of my pictures on my computer (major sadness), did a photo workshop, started assisting a wedding photographer at weddings and designing albums, had my a/c break twice, had my boyfriend and his new kitten move in, found a new apartment for us in July, helping another designer, went to an old friend's wedding, getting a new camera soon (YAY!), and said goodbye to two horribly rude and inconsiderate people. I've gone through a lot this year. I honestly can't believe how much I've pushed myself and have done things I was too afraid to do, but have it work out amazing. I absolutely can't wait to move into my new apartment with my boyfriend! I never thought I'd be moving in with my boyfriend in a million years. I accepted a long time ago that I'd be a crazy old cat lady all alone. And I never thought I could lose even more faith in people, but people always surprise me. I thought I had at last found two friends that I could count on and trust, but boy oh boy was I wrong. They ended up being the most rude, mean, hateful, back-stabbing, lying people I have ever met. It honestly saddens me that people can be so mean and not even care. They even tried stealing my stuff when moving out!! I mean really. Oh well.

So let me end this gigantic novel now. A lot has happened. A lot has changed. A lot has been learned. I'm thankful for everything that has happened...all the great people in my life, all the horrible people that are no longer in my life, and I can't wait to see what the rest of this year has to offer. Again, I am terribly terribly sorry for how long this took me, but I honestly had no time to breathe let alone update this. From now on though, I will be free and posting a.s.a.p! Thank you Eric for understanding and being such a great friend. I'm truly excited for this project and can't wait to see how it ends :)